This is the time when i realize i can not have what i want. I
cant keep anything forever. This was started when one of my friend said that he
will be resigned from my company. I was trying so hard (until now) to make him
stay but i can not. He has his own life to live. Second time was my lover, he
was leaving for the distance he said. They do love me, but i cant see the love
from it, if they love they will stay. I keep blaming on them why are they
leaving if they really love me and its hard to be away from me. Thats such a
bullshit.
I remember why the guy on The Fault in Our Star said that
his biggest fear is being oblivion, people will not remember anymore about our
life. Well, i understand people come and go in our life, either they no longer
needed us or we dont need them anymore. I know i am being so selfish to ask
them for stay in my life forever, but is it too much to ask? Cant they stay a
bit until im ready to be left?
I understand, really if they dont want to stay we dont have
to make any effort to make them stay, if they need us they will come back. And i
still hate saying goodbye to someone that i have been attached so much, i just
dont want they to leave, why cant we
still like we used to be? Why cant we keep this forever? God is not fair, He
make their life happier than me. But i do believe, there would be someone
replace other that leave. But at this transition time no. i can not accept that
they will be gone. I am afraid to be forgotten.
