Alright, how should i start this...
I been friends with Key (not real name) for 3 years, not that long to call her soul sister but it feels like i have known her since forever, she is more like big sister who always have my back whenever i need someone to listen, cause of course she is older than me and her advice was never disappointing.
I trust Key that much, i grew up by her advice. Believe me I trust her more than my real sister even my mom. Whatever she said was like truth.
Our bond getting stronger each day, until one day she said she wants to pursue her dreams. I am happy also sad at the same time but I am happy that she could reach it at least now.
We could meet every week if we want, we keep our secret. She is my secret keeper, i told everything that even I didnt even tell to my God.
As the time goes by ups and downs we claim as soul sister, what we feel and everything was same. We were getting busier, she got the job she wants and im still in the same place but with lots of responsibility. We used to remember each other birthday and post it on social-media but this year is different, she said happy birthday after i post picture online.
She is getting busier i can understand, but every time we meet i dont feel good and relief after. Everything feels like out of its place, chaos. She keeps telling me about her life, college, her dates, and everything she couldn't stop. When she asked about my life update and I started to tell my story she is busy with her phone, and keep saying "sorry, can you repeat"
Probably she is indeed busy, then she started to talk about herself again, i even know her boss personal life and everything. I used to enjoy but now not. I feel like im sick of it and started to think that she is now thinking that the world only revolve around her and there's no me inside her life as if she forget where she started.
I started to removed her from my "close friend" on Instagram, mute her etc. Because i feel like every time I'm having a problem and ask her for advice its a bother for her. So i think its better off, isn't it?
Well I don't put blame on her, we grew up in different condition and i don't know what she's been going through, so i started to understand her more. I miss her though, and I confess it to her but no respond. So why bother?
Today I decided to break up our soul-sister relationship, because I can not found any similarities between us. It is really breaking my heart when I excited to share my story but all i heard was nothing? I am just wishing her having best life and stay healthy. Don't work too hard okay?
Love,
Rosi
