Bawen, 25 June 2016

Bawen, 25 Juni 2016

I have never feeling this well, i am surprisingly enjoying my way home by train. I looked up at the scenery its prettier than usual, the sea, the rice fields. The passenger said you only hate the road when you are on our way home. But this time no, i really like it. I remember the first time came to this city alone, full of hate because i know Semarang will be not as good as Jakarta. But i like semarang lots, i am feeling homey here. Someone once said home is not about the place but the feeling.

Its been a while since the last time i read the book, it is very good this time. Murakami succesfully impresed me by his brilliant book, i forgot how good is it to read a book to kill your time with imagination inside the book.

I will miss this time, the road that i used to hate the most, bekasi-semarang. I know sometime i will love this road trip to find my real "home" in semarang. Thanks for the memories, loves, and new friends.

Project Of Happiness : Last Day!

So hello guys! terima kasih karena POH sudah mencapai hari terakhir, lebih dari satu bulan saya menulis POH dan making memories with my close friends in Semarang.

So this post tribute to my closest friends in Semarang, that always making my day positive and happy even in the worst situation. 

So I met them in my first year of uni, simple we were close because we have close student number, then it grew because we always back to our hometown together. Long story short, we are really close till now, we i mean me and my other 9 friends. They are Opa, Mba Dindak, Pika, Kikay, Aini, Indah, Cinting, KK Cula, and Ika. We are so close that other gang is jealous, we are the longest friendship, 4years without drama, 4years full of laugh. No on cant beat them making stories funnier. 

Oh, no we are not the prettiest girl at our campus, but we are the cutest the dumbest, the friendship goal that you are jealous for. I dont need pretty nor high end friends, just friends that making me laugh and ready to give me warm hug when i needed the most because i am living far from my parents and Nadia. So they are the best of the best inner circle i have ever met.

 Ika's Final Presentation

 Mba Dindak's Final Presentation

Cinting's Final Presentation

Hoping this is not our last iftaar :)

This is the time for us to say see you to each other, This is the time i say see you again, in a good way, it has been good 4years of my life, i am sorry for my greedy, ego, anger, and stuf. And thanks for making me freak enough until this point. Finding our path, new chapter of our life, hoping this friendship will last forever. Semoga beneran jadi sosialita ya, keep mbrigidiw. 

With love, dik oci, ocidin, mbrigidiw10 :)

Project Of Happines : Day 21

Wait, what? Day 21???

No i am not lazy to write, but before the explanation i wanna say sorry for lack of posting its not because i am being lazy nor productive but i was thinking that i am too open for you guys you know what i mean, i am more like over showing with my readers rather than people in real life. I wasnt saying any words to my bestfriend but i wrote it on blog. I am not facing my problem but rather i write it. Its just not right and I have to fix it there and there. And after that shit happen to me, I prefer to write just my point of my happiness, but i will always try to find the meaning of every shit that happened in my life. So lets just started shall we?

so, i finished my Uni! my final presentation went smooth, and everything went alright. My mom came to accompany me and stuff. I was so happy, all of my hard work of past couple months has been paid off. 

With My PBL (Preman Tandang) Family

 Mas Rogi! My motivator, My spirit, my mentor in everything!

 Sahabat 35 Hari para Pemuda Pangestu

 Temen-Temen OSH FORUM yang selalu berjuang didepan bagian nunggu dosen, di PHP-in, dibikin nangis, dibikin kesel, dibikin seneng dosen, Terima Kasih atas 2tahun bersama! (Kalau udah sukses tolong sumbang nomor antrian buat di depan bagian)

Last but not least, my lovely girls. Terima kasih atas 4tahun bersama! Luv

Thanks to everyone who is coming, and give their precious time just take a photo and congratulate me. Terima kasih kepada para dosen pembimbing dan penguji :) and special to God for making this happen. Jesus Bless You all !

Lots Of Love

XoXo

Rosi

Project Of Happiness : Day 14

Its day 14th. 

New day new experience right? I always find some meaning everyday either good or bad one and try to understand it.

Stay positive in your life affected by few things one of it is type of people around you, it devided bye two and its only positive or negative one. People can easily change you into bad or good person. And surrounded by negative people can change your mood easily.

By saying negative people i mean people who gives you bad mood, who gives you bad influence in your life. For example, they always hating on someone or something, saying bad things about someone, unmotivated, commenting on your life, anyone who makes your mood level or your self confidence low that kind of people deserve in hell.

I have a negative people in my life of course and i am cutting him off from my life. You know a fuckboy who keeps chatting me, asking me to be with him and all of kind fuckboy stuff. I am the typical a person who dont like to hurt someone's feeling, i keep trying to stay nice  but my kindness is mistaken by him. Like he wont stop chatting me since 2years ago, then i have no patience with this guy because he is such an asshole, i am cutting him off from my life by blocking him on my contact. No i am not regret at all, because I dont want negative people ruining my happiness and my positivity to achieve my goal.

Surrounded by positive, motivated, and successful people is important, because by that you will have a different prespective, higher goals, supporting each other. They are happy with your success, not being envious or try to beat you down. There is no reason to stay with people who makes you unhappy, you deserve to be happy because you are the one who create your own happiness. Lets embrace your happiness and positivity.

Lots Of Love
XoXo
Rosi

Project Of Happiness : Day 13

Its been 13th days of my POH, but you know what I have been through. So many drama, so many emotions, so many up and down scenes in my life.

You know I made this project just for fun, I mean I wanna be happy, try to find something in my life that i have been looking for and so far it went well, try to find an hiding mean of all of the shit that happened in my life.

Its not about bad day you know, its about how you rise after you fall, how can you turn that shit day into an happy day. How to control your emotions, how to create a positivity in every negative vibes around. 

Its not an easy journey but I promise you this is worth to try. Because of we are living in a world that blaming someone/something in every condition at our life is a common thing, if that makes sense. 

I mean, that positivity comes from your self, you happiness its all your decision either being happy or sad all the time. Its not coming that easily. When you failed, well thats okay maybe you can be success in you second attempt or maybe third or seven, just keep trying. Its okay if you are failed in some part but it doesnt mean you are always be failed, no thats wrong.

There is no one success in their first try, you know trial and error principal. Thats our life, i keep trying on something that i really want, sometimes its all failed just because God wont let us there thats the another answer. But there is a will, there is a way, maybe not now probably later or maybe not at all but He will replace with something more than what you want as long as you have a willingness and keep praying yet keep trying God will open another door to us.

And one thing, you have to remember :

Ps: i dont know what i am talking about

Lots of Love
XoXo
Rosi

Project Of Happiness : Day 11

It looks like my POH turns into POSadness . I dont know, i actually dont like complaining but this week was so rough for me. Have I mentioned you that my final presentation is re-scheduled?

Well he said D-1 my final presentation?

Gosh, I actually dont want to write or share this with you guys because of i am feeling so embarrassed right now, i have told everyone about my final presentation, my mom already booked a ticket to come here but God says differently. I dont understand, all of my lecturer said that they could do this tomorrow but its all changed. 

I was crying and calling my mom right after ( i cried so loudly at campus, luckily there was no one there ) my mom tried to calm me down it kinda works, then i was hurry going back to dorm, i cried again, louder this time, and locked my self away from my phone and people. 

At 3pm, i came back to my campus, i was trying to fix any mess that just happened. But it doesnt work, i keep rejecting contact with human, i really dont wanna talk to anyone, even my bestfriend i walk pass by her, i even pretend i didnt see her. Then i remember i hadnt have food since morning so i decide to treat myself eating at the restaurant which has the best fried tofu (it taste like milk). And again, when the waiter asked "why are you alone" then i replied "not your business" (in a high tone!)

Fuck me right, i spread negative energy even to strangers. Its not easy to be positive or happy all the time, sometimes i just need to be selfish. It's hard like really hard turn the shit day into happy day.

And by you have the shit day, you know more about who is really care about you, who's really sincerely listen to you . And its only few people, nadia, and my family. 

Nadia quote was : There are worse thing ahead, always be grateful 

And because of this shit happen, my dad was calling me and said that "everything is okay, it means you have to prepare more" ( i rarely talk to him )

And mom, ugh i dont wanna write about what she said because it so sad but at the same time charge up my spirit and belief, she was so worried about me but idk probably i am the drama queen one.

I made this too dramatically so people will be sympathy with me. 

But on the other side, God really wants to fix something by ruined something, do you get what I mean? My relationship with my dad is worse, but because of this he even call me and calm me down. So if you see bad day into different perspective then its actually not that worse.

There are so many people who is worse than you, just do not comparing yourself to someone "higher" than you but compare yourself with someone "lower" so that you'll be always grateful. Its hard to be positive all day or everyday, because everybody has their own problem so dont bother them with your sadness. And you will not have bad day all years right? sometimes shits happen.

Que Sera-Sera

Lots Of Love
XoXo
Rossi